Reason One I’ve grown in being able to speak my ideas in small groups such as seminars because I’m actually willing to contribute to the conversation. I think I’ve grown here because I’m not much of a talker and last year we did a seminar and I spoke up once, it was the exact same with small groups on a question we had to discuss I was the kid who never spoke up and just agreed on what was being talked about. This year my speaking amount is still limited but it has gone up since last year.
Reason Two Advocating has gotten a lot better this year. I hardly did it last year and I have two examples of doing it this week (Show emails from Summer and Ally and explain why I needed to email them). Also compared to last year I have a ton because in math class I never asked Lauren for help, this year I’ve asked Dan if I didn’t understand something for the most part because there are times where I still won’t really ask if I’m confused. It’s been a growing progress for sure.
2 Things to Work On
Thing One: I don’t have a lot of self confidence in certain classes like math, biology and certain parts of humanities because of this I second guess myself a lot. I was talking to Ally during lunch about The Hero’s Journey Project reflection because I said I needed help. About five minutes later I was packing my stuff up and Ally said: “you understand this you just need to have a little more faith in yourself.” I understood what we were doing I just didn’t believe in myself enough to actually answer the question without hearing from a teacher that I was answering the question properly.
ThingTwo: I have a hard time making friends. One piece of this is low self-confidence. There are other factors to this one of them is that I’m not really comfortable with just asking if I can hang out with people because the only friends I really had growing up my mom was friends with their parents before we were born so I basically had built in best friends. It’s something that I’ve tried to fix but that’s exactly it. It can’t be fixed. I can’t force it to change I have to be comfortable with it and I want to be so bad but I’m not.
1 Big Question to Ponder
LoneQuestion: What is one thing that you’d want to change about yourself?